I was not going to post this writing. I was going to erase it because it is not as relevant as it was at the time. At the time I was caught up in the romance, in the story. However a lot has changed since July and while the man in this piece is still in my life, he is moving away soon and no longer will play a part in it. However, I want you my readers to get the real me, to get the me that I was in July when I wrote this piece…
Dating and Babies
A few weeks ago I reconnected with an old friend – it has gotten romantic, at times, but for the most part we are keeping things fairly simple. You see he is a father, he is an inspiring artist/photographer whose sole (soul) focus is improving his life for his daughter and he is not interested in a relationship at this point in his life.
You may be thinking, Nicole back away – run if you have to. But you see, I want a child of my own. I want a baby so badly my heart breaks when I think of not having one. This could be win-win. I could enjoy my spare time with the artist and still be able to focus on the Artificial Insemination (AI) and my health.
So I’m not running away. I find him incredibly sexy in every way, his mind, body and soul, but I am keeping him at a distance in order to be careful that my heart stays strong and focused.
He may run away screaming when he finds out my plan – who knows. I hope not. I hope he supports me and encourages me, but truth is, I don’t know him well enough to really know how he will react.
Either way – it’s me time. Time for me to do what I know in my heart and my head what is right!