In April, I went to Las Vegas with my mom and my aunt and I promised them and myself that before I left the city of lights I would quit smoking. At the Las Vegas airport I dumped half a pack of cigarettes in the garbage and didn’t look back – until July 21st when my dad passed away and I walked out of that hospital in my brothers arms and asked for a cigarette – we always go back to what we know will provide any kind of relief. I have never smoked so much since that date then I have in my entire life.
However now, now I need to prepare my body and mind and for me, that means quitting smoking again. Usually this isn’t a problem, but my brain has used the smoking as a crutch and that crutch has been leaned on regularly. I am cutting down for sure – down to five or six a day which may seem like a lot but I am embarrassed to say how many I was smoking prior to this week.
My baby needs a healthy body to grow and develop and I know this and while I still have at least 6-8 weeks before any kind of insemination will take place, that only gives me a few weeks to quit completely. That has me a bit nervous.
I also need to cut back on the sugar, my sugar intake is so high and while again, prior to my dads passing, I had been on a good role, I need to get back into it. I am determined to make my body a safe place for my future child. I know women who smoke while pregnant and who eat crap while pregnant and they have beautiful, healthy babies, but I really want to make sure I am giving my child the best chance.
Wish me luck! Did you give up anything to be pregnant??