Anyone waiting for a child, anyone going through this whole adoption process (which is long and seems never-ending) probably had a rough holiday. There was no pitter patter of little feet as my young child squealed with delight to see what Santa left them. There was no baking of cookies, no Christmas pj’s and no snuggling under blankets while we watched Rudolph or Frosty.
My patience level is pretty strong. I have come to accept that the holidays will be hard. That I can’t celebrate the way I want to – the way my heart desires to.
So instead of focusing on the negative (kinda), I have been busy decluttering. Remember that list??? I kept parts of it going.
Over the holidays (where I worked everyday except the mandatory days off) I took care of the following:
- those stupid buttons that have been in random zip-lock bags all over my house – gone!
- All the clothes that I haven’t worn in one year – sold some to my mom and will keep the rest to sell in a future garage sale
- All my Twilight magazines from when I was OBSESSED with Edward and Bella – recycled!
- Old bedding…garbage
- all wrapping paper scraps and old bows and ribbon – recycled or garbage!
- Sports bras – they were already trashed…seriously I hate those things
- CD’s. I had a whole box of CD’s that I don’t know why I even had in the first place?! TRASH
- Nail polish. I had 34 bottles, I know have 7. I threw out old, ugly and messy bottles!!
- People…sorry, but I deleted 13 people off my Facebook – I un-friended people I am not actually friends with or whose life I don’t really care about…
- Scarves and mitts and hats – donated to the local women’s shelter!
- Digital photos on phone…I went through all of my photo’s and deleted a ton of photo’s. Probably like 100!
It felt good. It felt like I was doing something, anything to get past the bad feelings and sadness that only the holiday’s can bring. Keep busy…this is what I have learned to pass the days…