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Cottage living, nothing beats it.  Every summer with Kim and her family, the sites, the sounds and smells are so familiar to me now I can’t imagine a life without them.

On Saturday’s boat ride, coming back from Jeff’s friends cottage where Kim, Meaghan and I had no luck at fishing, Mya, (Kims daughter) sat in my lap for about ten minutes (which never happens – she is a mama’s girl at heart).

Her blond curls were tickling my nose from the cold wind and she was wrapped up tight in a towel around her puffy blue life jacket.  Her head was resting against my chest and I was wondering if she would fall asleep again as she always falls asleep on boat rides! She was telling me stories and pointing at all of the Canadian flags as we sped by.  I gently pressed my lips against her head and closed my eyes for just a moment and imagined when my own sweet boy or girl would be placed in my lap enjoying their new life in Canada at the cottage.  It will be then that the sites and sounds and smells will change – everything will be seen through new eyes – through the eyes of my child.

Mya is around the age my own child will be so having her be so willing to spend her time with me just makes me feel like a kid in a candy store!  I smile a bit brighter and the sadness and aching of not having my own child eases a little, knowing I will have a future as a mother and am right now getting to build my relationships with my extended family and their children.

For the rest of this week, I will hold tightly to the memory of those sweet curls blowing across my face and the warmth her tiny little soul provided me – even if it was only for ten minutes.

Love

Nicole

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Cottage life is great, but it will be better

People say I am crazy for buying a cottage with one of my best friends.  “It was to much money”, “it’s not worth it”, “it will ruin our friendship”…I have heard every negative thing possible.

What people don’t understand is that it was not to much money – it was fairly cheap for a place you can basically live in for 6 months a year.

It was 100% worth it.  I spend most weekends up there plus a week or two each summer.  I tan, I have amazing times with my friends, I swim, I go boating and I get a lot of reading done.  If I was at home all summer I would be doing nothing – not being social that’s for sure.  I’d be on my couch watching TV and movies.

Finally – and this is a big one – it has not even come close to ruining my friendship with K, if anything we are closer because we are together most weekends for half a year.  We have fun, we laugh, we bicker and we tease her husband – a lot…if anything I am surprised he hasn’t killed one or both of us!

The best thing is that I get to spend a lot of time with her two children C and M.  It gives me a picture of what it will be like when I bring my child home from Haiti and introduce him or her to cottage living.

We all went on a boat ride Saturday afternoon and watching K hold M in her arms while we sped through Lake Seymour into Rice Lake I could almost feel my child wrapped in my own arms giggling as the water sprayed onto us whenever we hit a bump.   When we stopped to fish for a few minutes I sat on the back of the boat with M dipping our feet in the water comparing toe nail colours (she had pink, I had purple). I so desperately was yearning for my own child in those moments it was almost over whelming.  Bringing my little one home is something I constantly day dream about…I know there will be a lot of tough times…times when I doubt myself and my abilities, but those times when I hear a laugh or see a smile – those will be the times that are worth it.  I can’t wait to blog about THOSE times.  To let you all in on this amazing little person who will change my world in the most epic way possible.

Having this cottage is going to allow me to give my kid memories that will last their lifetime.  Some of my favourite childhood memories exist at my aunts trailer – and we were only there two weeks a year!  Imagine the possibilities when they are up north for days and sometimes weeks at a time!?  My blog and Project Life albums will be so much more vivid and exciting!!

Nicole

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Happy Birthday Canada

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Because I work for the City, I am at work today, which means no long weekend for me. Many of my friends who work for private companies are off enjoying a 4-day long weekend and I am working. It’s okay. I am actually not that mad. I am working which means not only do I have a job, but I have a city job which is a great thing to treasure so the fact that I am working today (while I may not be thrilled) is okay in my books.

However, don’t feel to bad for me, because I did take off last Friday so I could have a 3-day weekend and also so I could enjoy my NEW COTTAGE! I know it’s crazy, I wanted a house – bought one in four days. I wanted a cottage, bought one in a week. When I want something I get it…almost always. Thankfully with no regrets!

Kim and I headed up to the cottage with her two kids Thursday night to officially open our new buy and thankfully traffic really wasn’t *that* bad. It was manageable and I was fine because Kim drove, with Simba sleeping up front and me in the back with her four-year old and three-month old while the cat was whining away in the very back with all of our stuff. The cottage is just outside Peterborough off highway 7 past Havelock, ON. It’s a beautiful resort on Lake Seymour. I quickly settled in unpacking and getting me (and Simba) situated. The four of us spent Thursday night and all day Friday getting used to our new surroundings and just enjoying our time off away from home.

The rest of the weekend was spent at the lake, pool and of course a Saturday night fire thanks to Kim’s hubby who finally joined us on Friday night after baseball.

Why did I get this cottage you ask? I mean I am a city girl, always have been. Why would I want to spend a majority of my summer up north being eaten alive by pesky mosquitoes and sweating away with no cable to occupy my time? I did it because I am thinking of my future family. Because one day I will have a family of my own and one of my favorite memories as a child is going up north to my Aunt’s trailer and spending random weeks or weekends in Bobcaygeon, outside by the lake with my friends. I want a place where I can go and let the kids run “somewhat” free, where they can meet new people and have something to look forward to on their summer vacations from school. Who better to buy a cottage with then one of your best friends who has a family whom you adore!? Kim and her family were the perfect choice. It was a decision I can’t see me regretting.

One day my children will thank me for this opportunity I have given them and if there is a boyfriend involved in that process than I am sure he will also be grateful and depending on whom he is, if he doesn’t’ like cottage life, he can stay home cause I am quite happy with the peace and quiet the cottage brings to me.

So I may not have been able to celebrate Canada all weekend long like some folks do, but I got to celebrate it in a very Canadian way – up north, with friends outside!

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Tonight after work I will spend the evening and all of tomorrow with Eharmony and then head over to get to know my neighbours better by accepting their invite to a bbq. I have a lot of things to do this summer and a lot of people I want and need to spend time with, but that’s what summer is for no? I’ve put off the insemination until after my surgery in September…by then I will have a better idea of where Eharmony and I stand and be on a better, healthier path to hopefully create a viable pregnancy!

Stay tuned…

Love

Nicole