Cottage living, nothing beats it. Every summer with Kim and her family, the sites, the sounds and smells are so familiar to me now I can’t imagine a life without them.
On Saturday’s boat ride, coming back from Jeff’s friends cottage where Kim, Meaghan and I had no luck at fishing, Mya, (Kims daughter) sat in my lap for about ten minutes (which never happens – she is a mama’s girl at heart).
Her blond curls were tickling my nose from the cold wind and she was wrapped up tight in a towel around her puffy blue life jacket. Her head was resting against my chest and I was wondering if she would fall asleep again as she always falls asleep on boat rides! She was telling me stories and pointing at all of the Canadian flags as we sped by. I gently pressed my lips against her head and closed my eyes for just a moment and imagined when my own sweet boy or girl would be placed in my lap enjoying their new life in Canada at the cottage. It will be then that the sites and sounds and smells will change – everything will be seen through new eyes – through the eyes of my child.
Mya is around the age my own child will be so having her be so willing to spend her time with me just makes me feel like a kid in a candy store! I smile a bit brighter and the sadness and aching of not having my own child eases a little, knowing I will have a future as a mother and am right now getting to build my relationships with my extended family and their children.
For the rest of this week, I will hold tightly to the memory of those sweet curls blowing across my face and the warmth her tiny little soul provided me – even if it was only for ten minutes.